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Wednesday, October 26, 2005

Wed, 26 Oct 2005 22:39:13 GMT

what would i do if it happens...?

Friday, August 19, 2005

Fri, 19 Aug 2005 06:03:40 GMT

Woahh, im back on xanga for once. This is going to be a long post, but if you read it, you wont regret it :] well i guess im updating for a good reason. Today, August 19th, 2005 is Meghan's 15th Birthday!
Last year i didnt really write anything important for your birthday post. At least, i dont think it was meaningful enough. haha, i guess it would be good to go to the past and see how i first met you eh? Your persepective was different i guess. I always chased around jonathan yoe because i liked him in the 6th grade. and after months and months of hitting him, out of nowhere he was like your just like my cousin, you like to hit me. you guys should become friends. and i always thought uhm.. okai sure. One day when i was chasing him, he ran by the cafeteria and saw you. you saw me chasing him, and you decided to help me a little bit and you smacked him across the head. Jonathan was like see what i mean, you guys are alike. cynthia meet meghan. after that day, when i was walking to class you and polina just came up to me and asked me if i wanted to go for a pool party on the last day of school. i thought it was really strange, considering you never really talked with me.. but for some reason i came anyways. We talked a little bit that day, and i realized that you were half chinese and could speak cantonese. you were the first person i met outside of my family that spoke it. 7th grade came, and jonathan was still there. one day he just said you guys are way too much alike, you both are chinese, and both left handed. we both shouted your left handed?! i guess we clicked after that. But then we had that stupid fight over a stupid reason.. that even though was a waste of time, i dont regret it because if we havent had that fight, i think that we wouldnt of had the good memories we had now. At the end of 8th grade, i talked with you again. i apoligized and i guess you were confused on why was i telling you all.. that stuff.. you came back from europe and we had the whole summer of getting to know each other, and getting to be best friends. We filled each other in, and i felt like i finally found someone who understands what im saying. Someone whos there for me. Remember when u had that dream that you got shot on the way to my house? haha, i remember that i told you that i'll try to be the first person to be at the hospital for you. We started high school and i was still having trouble with making friends i guess you can say. i dont remember why, but i went to the luau and i invited you with me because i didnt want to be alone. You met all these people, and most of them i dont even hang out with. hah.. and i was glad that you were there for me. that you came when i needed you, even if it wasnt for anything big. Remember my birthday party? I wanted you to to be the first person at my party, cause you meant the most. That day was fun. and since i read ur birthday post for me, i been waiting and thinking of what to write on yours. As the school year went by, we still managed to talk on the phone everyday, hang out sometimes. fridays at carls jr. with jonathan, basketball games, just coming over for no reason, camwhoring, parties, etc. our inside jokes. your UH OH HOT DOG. you even helped me in my homework when u dont even go to the same school.
after sadies, we didnt really talk much. We barely have conversations anymore that have importance. We barely see each other anymore. But Meghan, even if i dont mean anything to you... even if you forget about me, your always gonna mean so much to me. you mean alot more to me than just a month of not talking that im gonna forget about you. im sorry if you cant tell me things like you used to. i guess thats my fault though. but just know, that even if we havent talked in five years, you can always call me up and start talking. i promise. i can keep that promise. always. you always been there for me, through my whining and complaining. through all my repetitive talking. through.. my shyness. thick and thin. I owe you, so if you ever need me, whenever. call me. I said it last year, and i still mean it. i cant live without having my lovee in my life. your my significant other remember? its like i cant live without my other half. haha.. Meghan, your so awesome, and your so cool. You have the most awesomest ideas, and your smarter than me. ur loving&kind. always hungry. ur unreplacable. 6oneone8 i appreciate you always being there.. and

I luva luva luva you always <333 QOTD: "I hope you know in your heart how much that friendship means to me."

Thursday, July 21, 2005

Thu, 21 Jul 2005 00:51:30 GMT

summers going fine. i miss him alot. almost everyone left me for japan. and as u can see in the pictures, this is mainly whats happening to me this summer. i would update, but im really lazy, and i have 2482985789573570934570356 pictures to post too. so when im not lazy i'll actually have a real update. until then, look at the constuction! bleh... this is a reason why im not going anywhere this summer. and its really hot. the end. i'll try and update again soon. and comment everyone back. but bleh, i could get really lazy. haha.

Saturday, July 02, 2005

Sat, 02 Jul 2005 20:49:40 GMT

havent updated in a long time. i havent bothered to go on xanga in awhile either. i think its cause im too lazy to update. or its cause i dont have anything to say. i guess im updating whenever i feel like it now. yeah. i miss meghan like mofo. left me for china? pshh... i miss asher too. and kristyn. and alot of people. but they are still in town. so thats good. i saw a few people yesterday for another movie night. but less people this time. kevin and sean came too. sean hit my lamp and knocked it off. -___- summer is going good so far. last summer was bad. i didnt even have anyone, and i mean anyone to miss last year. but now i do. thats good i guess. i finally updated all those pictures from the last few days of school for you losers. last time i tried updating, it deleted everything and i got pissed off... so yeah. click on the picture to view more. but if you dont have some type of fast internet. i feel sorry for you. and i warn you. it IS alot. hm... dont have much else to say. cant remember much from the last few days of school. uhm. i ditched my classes and went to other people's classes on the last day like everyone else. and... oh yeah! i passed my math final so i got a c minus in the class. and i dont have to go to summer school anymore! :] okay im going to end this entry before it gets any longer.

QOTD: "It sux so much when you can't always be with the person you love the most. I miss you." -Asher <3

Tuesday, June 21, 2005

Tue, 21 Jun 2005 22:01:43 GMT

<--me and asher <3 hm... there isnt much to say. i havent updated in a long time because theres nothing much to talk about. uhm... last week of school. finals. get out early. got yearbooks and a few more days and no more seeing my friends everyday! :[ but i think summers going to turn out good. kevin is going to visit me every day after his summer school and im planning on getting together with people alot. ashlie is coming over on thursday. and next week people are coming over to watch movies. hm... not sure if people can come though. meghan is leaving for china on the 22nd. :[ that sucks. take me with you meghan! hm... yesterday during lunch we took alots of pictures... kinda. click on the picture to see more. but for you losers who dont have dsl or some type of fast internet. i pray for you. haha.

QOTD: ...i dont have one. haha.

i'll try and update more. but xanga is getting boring. haha, im starting to agree with jackie and sinta! :] good i guess?

Monday, June 13, 2005

Mon, 13 Jun 2005 19:55:39 GMT

one year ago... hmm, interesting.

Friday, June 10, 2005

Fri, 10 Jun 2005 21:50:09 GMT

in computer class right now. so i didnt get into ap world. no big deal. i'll just try for some other APs in the 11th grade. but as i thought about the reason why i didnt get into ap world during second period, it was hard not to cry. it wasnt and i repeat, wasnt the fact that i didnt get in... its cause i started thinking why. people constantly think its because i didnt get in. i was fine until nutrition when people came up to me and started asking me questions. i ran away from confrontation after that too... but yeah. im not going to take any honor classes next year. i suck at math, and honors english this year is hell for me. i thought about how im not able to do a lot of things like other people do. i have bad grammar, cant analyze things. cant tell anyone directions how to get to my house. cant write good essays. cant present oral presentations without choking badly or even answer a simple question in class. cant study. cant memorize. cant understand big words. cant learn big words. cant play sports. cant do anything. just useless. even my family thinks im slow and doesnt know anything. ...or at least my aunt does. people are constantly making fun of me for being slow or stupid... i guess it even encouraged me to think this way even more. i dont have any good qualities that i even began to wonder why people talk to me. i cant... do so many things that when compared with everyone else, i think im really stupid. i know i shouldnt think such negative things, and that stupitity isnt really based on what your capable of saying or writing... but its like i cant help it. the thought is stuck in the back of my mind. Everyone is an individual and everyone does things at their own pace... but i still feel so dumb. i dont know how people deal with me either. im constantly talking too much and im always whining about something.. i'll understand if you guys get tired and annoyed of me though. u guys wouldnt be the first person to do so... and yeah. i finished whining now. and my guess is that some people would comment and start yelling at me for saying all this. but forgive me.

//edit// just got home. sitting here. asher made me smile. he gave me pocky and pucca from little tokyo. <3 mom wants me to change and dress all formalish for the graduation. but im going in jeans. and chucks. the thought from earlier is still whats in my mind. the end. have a good weekend everyone.

Tuesday, June 07, 2005

Tue, 07 Jun 2005 23:32:19 GMT

hm... dont have much to say but i felt like updating. didnt take any pictures at all lately, so no pictures for you people to see. less than three weeks of school and i cant wait until summer. :] only bad thing is i dont get to see buddys and asher everyday. but we'll all get together right? yesterday talked to meghan for the first time in 21308213 years. she needs to come over soon. :] my day was boring. in the morning asher gave me chocolate! :] and lauren brought the 8th grade yearbook. started pointing at everyone's face and remembered good times. remembered that my picture was horrible, and i didnt want anyone to see it. and then everyone teamed up against me and stole the yearbook to find me! argh. in pe we played volleyball. last time i served i hit someone in the face. but today caren told me think of the ball as someone who i hate and i managed to hit it over the net and help tie the game. arent you proud? haha... and that was pretty much my day! tommorrow i have biology presentation and i am so nervous right now... i dont want to do it.

QOTD: Kristyn: I cant believe that austin is going to ditch us just to get a haircut. Ashlie: austin is ditching us to get a boyfriend?!?!?"

Wednesday, June 01, 2005

Wed, 01 Jun 2005 22:59:35 GMT

<-- my superman made that for me! :]

today was superhero day! i wore a superman shirt but i had my sweatshirt on the whole day... today was also my one month with asher! and many many more to come of course! :] i love you, and thanks so much for the oragami box and flower. you made me feel extra special like you always do, and it even made me feel bad about the gift i got you. it seemed like mines wasnt as nice... but i hope you like it anyways! haha yes... i would've posted a picture of the two of us... but we kinda missed lunch. tommorrow we shall take a picture! :] yeah cause during lunch we went to a meeting for ap world... it sounds so... hard. i swear im going to have so much trouble in that class... haha yeah. yep... uhm... nothing else left to say... love you asher! <3 :]

QOTD: "...Sometimes we can't find words to tell our feelings, Especially towards those we love the best."

Tuesday, May 31, 2005

Tue, 31 May 2005 01:49:01 GMT

havent updated in a week. today was interesting... Ashlie came over around 11:00 and then we watched some anime. Afterwards we took the bus to the grove and went into mac. Asher called me and told me that he was going to be "a couple of minutes late" more like 20 minutes. haha me and ashlie met up with quinn on the bridge, and we were just waiting for the guys to get there... Tillman was the first guy to come,18 minutes late. and then Corey came 19 minutes late. and then asher came! haha, its interesting how all 3 guys came late... psh guys should come on time. haha. Bought tickets to go see the longest yard... uhm... okay movie. boring at some parts. i wouldnt remember... neither would everyone else. :] Ashlie is sitting next to me as im doing this update. shes laughing. and she says hi guys... anyways. we went to farmer's market afterwards and it took forever for people to decide what to eat... we told someone to walk and we'll follow... but it took like 2139721 years to decide. then i said find some place with rice. and then tillman said sushi! stole some of asher's sushi... but i didnt know it was spicy. went downstairs to get something to drink. haha, came back and quinn was trying to eat some wasabi... i picked up asher's wasabi with the chopsticks and dipped in soy sauce and fed tillman this big chunk. haha, and quinn ate it too... and we were just laughing. asher stole the drink away so that quinn didnt have anything to drink. and then she went downstairs and tillman drank the rest of the coke. haha. uhm... asher had to leave, and then we just walked to the other side of the grove... and i was alone. -_-... haha, but i didnt mind cause i didnt have to worry about something... cough cough.... left around 5. click on the picture to see more. :] its mostly of quinn eating her wasabi though... haha, and ashlie just pointed out... my updates are too detailed. oh well! :]

QOTD: "There are as many nights as days, and the one is just as long as the other in the year's course. Even a happy life cannot be without a measure of darkness, and the word 'happy' would lose its meaning if it were not balanced by sadness."